so, my brother has had a birthday present, a new tv [that if I'm not wrong, my parents paid part of] and some money lent to him to 'tide him over'.

yet, my parents 'need to talk about it' when it comes to giving me my birthday present.
...my birthday was in june. which is, hey! almost three months ago now. I'm back in Manchester and my computer still isn't fixed. I mean, it's not like they've had it since may or anything. of course not.

and I'm going back to uni, and forgive me for sounding ungrateful, but I don't quite have the faith that people will stick around. I mean, it's not like this situation has never happened before. get some friends, and suddenly, one day, they don't talk to me anymore. I don't have faith in myself, I don't believe I have many things worth sticking around for. I don't believe much anyone tells me anymore, okay? I'm a bitch. but you knew that already.

and for fucks sake, it is a lot easier to say 'hey! I don't want to do anything that day' rather than 'I won't be around much.' I don't have the money to go into town for half an hour. to be ignored and shunned and pushed to the side.
I mean, it's not like you won't see anyone who'll see me. it's not like you borrowed a game off me that you knew was someone else's.

...it's not like you actually want to see me.

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Tags: emo, feeling sorry for myself, i am brat hear me rawr, parents, rawr