so, my brother has had a birthday present, a new tv [that if I'm not wrong, my parents paid part of] and some money lent to him to 'tide him over'.
yet, my parents 'need to talk about it' when it comes to giving me my birthday present.
...my birthday was in june. which is, hey! almost three months ago now. I'm back in Manchester and my computer still isn't fixed. I mean, it's not like they've had it since may or anything. of course not.
and I'm going back to uni, and forgive me for sounding ungrateful, but I don't quite have the faith that people will stick around. I mean, it's not like this situation has never happened before. get some friends, and suddenly, one day, they don't talk to me anymore. I don't have faith in myself, I don't believe I have many things worth sticking around for. I don't believe much anyone tells me anymore, okay? I'm a bitch. but you knew that already.
and for fucks sake, it is a lot easier to say 'hey! I don't want to do anything that day' rather than 'I won't be around much.' I don't have the money to go into town for half an hour. to be ignored and shunned and pushed to the side.
I mean, it's not like you won't see anyone who'll see me. it's not like you borrowed a game off me that you knew was someone else's.
...it's not like you actually want to see me.
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my layout is smex.
- [doing handstands on bottlebanks to prove that i'm sane.]
2007-09-04 10:33 pm (UTC)
I'd hang out with you at uni.
2007-09-04 10:39 pm (UTC)
all my friends are great people, it's just... ugh, I don't know. some kind of weird social paranoia. like at the weekend, I was talking to some girls at the show, and asked them to send me the photos. and I got home and was 'yeah, never gonna see those pictures.' [admittedly, I havent so XD]
2007-09-04 10:42 pm (UTC)
2007-09-05 12:00 am (UTC)
2007-09-05 06:31 am (UTC)
And parental hypocracy never gets old, I suggest dealing with it using manical laughter. Sure you may come off as less than sane in company, but damn if it doesn't just take the edge off.
2007-09-05 01:44 pm (UTC)
but then i guess we're all over the place, i wish we could all be together always ;_; but then we'd probably end up shunning each other XD
2007-09-05 01:45 pm (UTC)
...do you actually not know who I am? >__>
2007-09-05 02:12 pm (UTC)