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things I believe in.
- friends.
- music.
- not making blanket statements or judgements based on things like music. like what you will. I don't mind if you like what I listen to, but- just stop it.
- the heart's capacity for love. I've been there, crying myself to sleep and feeling sick that someone doesn't love me anymore. but we all move on. we don't stay stuck forever.
- that even when you [i] hit the floor, someone will always be there.
- and that things get better.

[- that old school mychem will never not crack me the fuck up.]

[less than two weeks.]

this was going to be longer and emoer, more about lapsed religion and judgement, and then maybe some cryptic statements on the past, and how people see me, what they know about versus what I know.
but like I said, that would be emo.

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I feel like I need to sleep for a week. but I only have the one lecture tomorrow, and then Halloween costume shopping.
...I know Halloween is today. but the party is Saturday.
I could pretty much pass as a zombie. I am pretty much that tired. no idea how I'm going to make it through the movie screenings tomorrow and the party Saturday.
also, I'm out of alcohol. to take chocolate milk and Baileys or coke and jd. questions questions.

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awesome link of the day. The Machine is Us/ing Us. from a set of videos from an anthropology class about the effects of digital media. it's interesting, for sure.

oh my god, I'm so fucking bored. yeah, I'm totally emofacing.

random points - when the lift gets to my floor, it tells me we're at the second basement. what.
- been watching many things. Lucky Number Slevin, Run Fatboy Run, Shaun of the Dead, and half of a Hornblower episode before I fell asleep on Katie's sofa. [in my defence, this was about 4am.] and also, Beck. because it's the only anime I have.
- uni seems to be okay. as in, like, 4 year course. no resits. huh.
- I've left my library cards at home. oops. no books for me.
- I'm stealing the unis internet. but I'm bored. :[
- seriously. BORED.
- I keep having moments of random nostalgia. since I have my old computer with me, I keep digging around my old files. like, old photos I took. me with my shitty blue hair. [oh god, the colour looked awful half faded.] I'm half temptd to put photos up to show how little I've changed.

in a bit, I'm gonna go buy some caffiene, and maybe go and clean my room. or go sleep.

eta: dear god, pictures of walls is the best website ever for cheering myself up.

I really don't understand this, lately I just feel really happy. although this is the day after I realised I have an honest-to-god emo fringe when I straighten my hair.
[it might have something to do with Ryan Ross. his happy face makes me happy.]

but oh god, at least two people last weekend thought I was 17. bwaha. [and a 17 year old looked 19, and a 13 year old looked 21.]

I'm also loving brand new far, far too much.

and the puppies [are almost no longer puppies] ate my parents' wedding photos.

I still feel kind of gleeful. I'm also making lists, and this is never a good thing.
- another pair of jeans. ugh, I adore these jeans. they're just the right amount of baggy and wahed out and pink and green.
- band t-shirts. I've been eyeing up some Brand New ones.
- a new wallet. preferably a smaller one.
- more MAC makeup. I'm turning into one of those girls who buys expensive makeup.
- a sports bra. for me and Dory plan to go fencing. I mean, man, you totally needed to know that.
the only problem is, I have no idea when my loan is coming in. hay government, I want my free moneh.

I have a feeling there's some dinner I'm meant to be cooking.

things that make me happy.
- my friends. yes, we all know I can be a disgusting sap at times, but hey. ♥♥ there are some of my friends who put up with a ridiculous amount of shit and clinginess off me. there are also some people who are just fantastically funny.
and the best part? I get to see a fair few of them next weekend. ♥
even if I only see you once or twice a year, even if I don't speak to you much, even if we're just lj friends, all of you have made my life so much better.

- ( cut for photo )
scenester cowboys. because, um, what? this is awesome, yet utterly bizarre.
also, new panic song that doesn't sound, well, odd.

- music! I mean, I went to an anime con, and came back with four cds! [we went on a tesco run and were gone for almost three hours! it was awesome.] and one of those is screamo! also, I have discovered the Hush Sound. ♥

- I have a burning desire to make Iso into the prettiest princess at amecon.

- mint and tea tree shampoo is not edible. tastes soapy. also made Steve's hair smell delicious, or so he claimed.

- House Emo won. incidentally, it seems Junpei was not pulling my leg.

- Seaking?

- Reading! Becky~ coaches? tents? I is mildly unprepared.

Random, unrelated points.

- Tesco now has self service checkouts. Someone left £5 and a new pair of Vans at one. Ouch.
- 'I wasn't lesbian at the time!'
- My birthday party was something of a minor sucess - not that many people turned up, and not many actually went out clubbing. And we all left pretty early in the end due to drunkeness, illness and people actually having to go to work in the morning. But it was pretty good to see everyone anyway.
- 'This song is about gay schoolboys.' 'Isn't every song?'
- I'm both dreading going home and looking forward to it. Because I'm going to really miss people here, and then there's all the stress that I associate with home. But there's all my friends, and fun things we've got planned and I can always go vist people, right? I think, I guess.
- My head is slowly getting more and more confused. I
- I'm not that girl anymore. But it doesn't mean that it doesn't make me feel sad.
- I would like to curl up in a ball and forget tomorrow exists.

things that are good:
+ friends!
+ trying to ask if someone knows what I mean without telling them exactly what I'm talking about, thus negating the need to ask
+ pokemon - ahaha, what?
+ bandom ♥
- ...cults!
+ pirates!
+ noodles!
+ twisting sweet songs into something really creepy
+ knowing I have no exams until next friday! meaning I have time to revise and clean my room
+ music
+ chocolate milk
+ really good, expensive take away sushi
+ seeing people again!
+ finally having found some skin lightening cream

things that are not good:
- exams, and we will talk no further of this.
- anyone remember that stress based illness I used to have? the one where I used to make myself sick a lot? it's quite possibly back.
- sore throats
- knowing I have to revise and clean my room
- my brain in general
- ...seeing people again?
- finding out the skin lightening cream is only available at the Trafford Centre store

things that I am unsure about:
~ I go home in three weeks.
~ the fact I appear to be lacking in capital letters.

...how about you?

but to paraphrase a cat macro, it is tiem for sleepie.

Ahahaha, what.

( cut for the vaguest of vague spoilers. )

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Things I should really get done before Wednesday.
1. Contract. Uh, yeah, fail.
2. Send cheques. As above, fail.
3. Revise.
4. Character set design. ...Again. Because my group member fails and stole a really crappy lame set.
5. ...Revise some more.
6. Wash clothes.
7. Write.

I really also shouldn't be spending any more money. Least, not till next weekend. Oh, my loan, how I adore thee.
[Yeah, guess who preordered Pokemon Diamond, fool.]

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Also, the new Bloc Party tracks are kind of win. I really don't like the start of The Prayer that much [that loads of people have had as msn names, aha.] but the chorus is just great. And I Still Remember is awesome too.

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In two weeks, I'll be coming home from London. How's that for awesome.