8 days. Like The Ring but more messed up. [Tokonatsu.]

Yesterday Thursday was kinda good, kinda bad. Laser quest was great fun, bar the fact I've now got a scrape on my arm. TT-TT And the shiny shiny fans. X3 They're pretty cool. Although they give me headaches. A lot of stuff gives me headaches atm. XD;; Also, sitting in the park was way cool. Proving that me and Snaj talk far too much XD and everyone else is too quiet XP But yeah~ Let's do that at Toko. And Mario minigames. I am the master of Wanted. XD

And uh, if you hadn't noticed, my mental state at the present time is not too stable. X3 Things that probably shouldn't get to me... do. But hey, nobody cares that much. My mother's also having a go at anything she can. Even if I have a look on my face which is me thinking 'I don't want ice cream on my portion of raspberries.'
It's just a little lonely around here.

I guess there's Toko and Wednesday to look forward to, but I don't know how much Im actually looking forward to either at the moment.

Blah blah, Sarri is emo, that's ok, you can just fucking ignore me when I'm like this, right? :D
It just makes me feel so angry and messed up that people who claim to be my friend, say they miss me, have this attitude. Stop it, ok? It's REALLY FUCKING UP MY HEAD.
I am not happy. I am tired and lonely and bored and headachey, and sometimes I want a conversation without always being the person to speak up first. That's not friendship.
It's just be nice for people to give a damn at times. [Specific, not general.]
I'm overweight, I really hate how I look, I just want to get the fuck back to uni just to get out of this house, and I have a boyfriend who 'doesn't get attached to people' but still has being going out with me for 9 months. And I don't understand anymore. Nothing I do is really right.
And you know what? I don't give a fuck that I 'have nothing to be down about.' I don't care that when I'm talking to some people, it always sounds like they're judging me. So what, I want to buy silly stupid things I don't need. So what, things a person said still really hurt and offend me. I don't care that I'm just some attention whore who only does this for attention or whatever.

Maybe I don't want to hang around with you at Toko. Maybe I think you smell. Maybe I'm tired of being miserable cause of you.
But when did you ever care what I think?

Snakes on a Plane!

And for even more kicks, the Snakes on a Plane song!

Tags: emo, life, rant