They're all out having fun now. But for the first time in ages, I really don't care.

It's a nice day. I'm listening to good music and been reading my new books. I even did some work on some fiction. My room isn't clean, but I don't care.

Things have been so strained lately for me. I don't want to say the wrong thing, but by drawing away to try and save myself from the pain, I just hurt people anyway.

I really don't know what is the best course of action anymore, but I don't care.

My lip still really hurts. People keep asking me what's happened and how I did it. And then they tell me I should stop biting my lip. It's not that easy. I'm used to doing it now.
Maybe I'll just have a scab on my lip forever.

We're eating Chinese tonight. My parents cannot disagree with me. I have spoken. ^^; The new Chinese place down the road is gorgeous apart from the soups... So nice dinner tonight.

Yesterday was a day. The quiz was okay. Charlottes boyfriend kept looking at all my sketches... *laughs* So I drew one of him and Charlotte. It's not my fault I made him look like a coconut. We didn't win, or lose. So I guess we did okay. The cryptic clues were the best though. I totally kicked ass. All should fear me and my cryptic clue solving ways.
Sato: Yeah... sureeee....

I have my new poster up. Kinda weird since it's at the end of my bed, next to my pc, and it looks like they're looking at me.

Keenspace is playing up... So I had to look around for Arcana updates. They're on her journal. So I read them and was happy. Or maybe not... There's being serious Holden angst there.

I have a MegaTokyo winamp skin. Wh00t. ^^

Ah, the wonder of CCS tertris. Do you know how addictive that game is? And Pokemon Pinball. O.o I have issues.
A few days ago, someone asked me if I remembered the Pokemon craze, how everyone was so into it. And my response was 'So? I still am.' -.-;;

I'm hungry. *wanders off to get snack* People at school have recently pointed out how little I eat at school. I never generally eat lunch, normally just some junk food. -_-;; I need to stop that. Sometimes I don't eat that good at home. I'm a picky eater. I know sometimes I don't eat anything for breakfast and at school, and then go home and make myself instant noodles, and that's all I eat and I'm okay with that. I'm still overweight.

That's depressing me, back to another subject. Or onto even.

I'm having fun making Bex's icon. She thought the Ryuichi one looked wrong somehow. *pokes* You're just jealous. You too, Jordan. *pokes again* You're all jealous of my cool transparencies.

O.o They have the news on. I'm figuring this isn't good.

I had the weirdest dream the other night. World war three had started, so they sent us home from school. But we couldn't leave without our yearbooks. Weird.

My mum keeps reminding me that if I don't get my room tidy, nobody can come over. She's missing one vital piece of information. Nobody wants to come over. I coulda probably bargained with my parents on Monday to let Estel and Jordan stay over, but I didn't. Stel knows why. At the time, Jordan’s attitude towards me seemed to be 'I don't want to be anywhere near you.' It may not have been right, but that's how it seemed to be. And I didn't want to put myself out only to be treated like dirt.

My good mood has slowly deteriorated. I'm going to go off and cry read Ender's Game now.