Blargh. New Years Eve is in just over a day and still I have no idea of times or places. Tell me. Or I keel j00 in teh face. >_>
It also means that soon Keith is here. I wanna find out what time he's getting here so maybe I can ddr. >_>

HELP I AM ADDICTED.
I need this album. Like like. XD A good quality version. And plus the gutarist is kinda hot. o.o In a geeky way. So yes. This is next on my buy list.

Today I revised, or I played Pokemon until I realised I was hideously obsessed with that game. And realised I'd left some of my EMD notes iiiin Manchester. So moved onwards to Digital System Design, which I have much love for. <33
But seriously. Two gyms, plus the whole cut scene thing in the middle. ':00 A Pokemon game has cutscenes!' I'm a dork.

Pico-chan is fixed, I switched it back on again and it worked. BLARGH.

I'm actually having serious thoughts about my hair. Like, getting it cut short. But... I hate having short hair. But kinda the length the Sakura bits were at all around, then pink streaks.
But bar Sekiden album... saving for ds. I will get one. >.>

Something is fuxx0red with my typing today.


This has been one of the oddest years so far. I left school, started uni, passed chemistry [whoo!] and I've done a lot of things I'm not exactly proud of. I've ended up playing around with people's hearts, and some of them I'm sorry about, and some of them I'm not. I regret some things a lot, looking back. And I'm still bitter. But there's things I'm happy about. I have an incredibly good friend that I'd've never expected to make. I'm still possesive. I'm not as addicted to sex as everyone joked I am.
I owe a lot of people apologies it seems.
Friends... Even as I become better friends with some, others drift away. Come back, damn you!

Over the next year, I just want to make myself more like the image I have of what I want to be. I want to be thinner, to be special, to be kind of cool and wacky. I want to be a better friend. I found it hard to talk to someone I hadn't seen for 3 months, someone who I've gone through a lot with, just because people I wasn't especting to be there. Almost as if, as I become more confident, I'm becoming more shy.
I want to go swimming more, to learn to touch my toes, just to be happy with what I look like.
I want to calm down. I get so stressed and twitchy, it's not funny. I'm clingy, but part of me really truely believes, even if the worst happens, I'll still smile. People do want me, even if it's not in a relationship. Yeah, I bounce from one relationship to the next quite easily it seems, and maybe that's a bad thing.
I want to spend less time at home next year. It's really annoying being here. I'm ungrateful, I guess, but being here just makes me want to scream sometimes. Just... things like asking me to clear the stuff from making lunch, when they mean the entire surface, screaming and almost swearing for leaving a door open for 30 seconds, comments about my weight. It's just hard. But I'll get by. I'm still here, right. ;3
Sometimes my sadness overwhelms me, and I just want to learn to pull myself out of it. Not relying on others so much.
I want the promises to actually be kept, but even if they don't, it's not a big deal. I think.

Maybe next year will be even more interesting.