*stretches out* Nya, feel better now... slightly, anyway. ¬¬ Nostalgia still doesn't have my manga. *goes to find the stock outlet and camps out*
I'm gonna head into Erdington a little earlier to get pizza, so expect a Sarritichi camping out at the bus stop. XD Pizza hobo?

Last night, we had another episode of 'the toaster is downright scary and likes to short out the entire house' at around 9pm. =_= I like toast dammit.

Today, the whole year panicked about student loans. In tutorial [after a free and marzipan] Mrs lodge was 'There was something going on in a covered registration about the deadline being Friday, a rumour that someone got from another school. >_>;; That had nothing to do with me, honest. The first half was fun, squashed in the corner gossiping. XD

And I swear this song just said 'Cause submission is the future.'

Go look. >_> It's hideously cute.


Did that Death Clock meme today. Can't remember the results, but that's not really what it's about.
I have this... emotional blankness associated with death. For some reason, thoughts of my grandpa's death around this time two years ago come to mind. I knew, on the morning my parent's left the house at 5am... I knew he was dead. I didn't go back to sleep, I stayed awake, I went into school because it was my coursework deadline. I remember crying at the funeral. And the other day at church, I'm sure it was the same reading that my brother red. 'I am the Way, the Truth and the Life.' Or is it light? I remember his voice in it as he rushed the ending. Maybe the feelings aren't as blank as I thought. But when we came back to school, they told us our year 7 form tutor had commited suicide. And I just felt... blank. I mean... it's awful that happened... I just felt empty.
It's something that scares me a lot when I think about it. I guess it's the abandonment thing, and then just... being helpless. Dying scares me more than death. I didn't go to the hospital much. I hated it.

On a slightly more optimistic note... I had to figure out my BMI for it. And... wow. It makes me feel good, kind of. Since it's healthier. XD I feel the best I've done about myself physically then I ever have, I think. Although I wish my hair was straight. And one colour. XD I know... the one person who knows more about my eating habits gets mad when I don't eat, but I swear. It's not like that. I'm happy like this. Sure I'd like to be thinner, but healthy.
Although. I should probably look into the stress physically sick thing.

Friendships are twisting around again. Does it worry me, or not?