Blankness... I was sad earlier, everything bubbling out. I said what was bugging me about myself. I got told I'm not being left. I want to believe.
And something someone said... meant a lot... Since I'm always trying to convince myself the reason they say things is because I won't go...

I'm going to try and figure out how to balance myself better. No rpg, I guess. Or just hang out. But less DDR. Then work. Maybe go next Friday...
I'll have the whole summer... as she keeps telling me...
I'm giving in perhaps... but I'm still here... so come see me occasionally...
Also... Sarri try and stop spending so much... I can just afford Fruits Basket >.> maybe... I've ordered it now... Gah!

I wanted comfort, but I tried to push myself away.

I just wish she'd shut up.

The people who are annoying me, as in annoying me with no change, always downs... I'm just going to stop it getting to me.
Other little things... ¬¬ I'm not going to fall over and die if you tell me the truth. Saying something and covering up hurts more, I guess. I don't expect you to tell me everything. Just tell me some things...

I'm going to make myself work. I really don't want to go to the thing tomorrow [I know I should, out of respect, but death... is always blank to me] so I'll sit and do my paper, then move onto physics. Do dishwasher. Perhaps turn msn on around 8? NO MMORPGs. No downlaoding ro watching or reading or writing.

And fuck what she says, I'm getting a fucking job! Even if she says I won't blah blah. Maybe it's because she says I won't. Haha.

I'm really sorry I'm not in a helping mood. I'm being selfish. You all mean a lot to me though.

My hands smell like Kick.