I'll say it first, I like the manga more. At current. Just little things like blushy Syaoran and Kurogane backstory and Chii ward and blaaargh. XD The music. Weird at first, it's very .hack, being same composer and all. It's odd, but I like it. OP and ED are good too. ED is a little on crack though. XD I found the voices okay mostly, Syaoran is nice and polite sounding, haha. But Touya doesn't sound quite right. >.>;;; Animation is pretty nice, although wtf at pink glows. Plotwise, I'd've liked blushy Syaoran as I mentioned, and more on why Tomoyo sends Kurogane... And what is up with excavating at night? Touya's sword is teh win. XD
So, fairly happy fangirl.
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New Muse vid soon. ^.^ Stockholm Syndrome. And plus, I already know what I'm getting Catherine. XD
Fangirl moment in Physics. Selecting the right one from gravitional/electrostatic. Of course, Sarritichi whispers in bad Tohma accent, 'It's gravitation!'
In a really weird mental state... Worried about people, jealousy, confusion over what to do, lonely, general angst that for once, seems to be doing a good job of not getting into lj. I just think I need certain people right now, who might realise this, I don't know.
I'm scared of the situation I'm in. Torn in two directions. Make a move, take a risk. Or sit here and weather things out. Maybe the second way I only let myself get hurt, but that's not for sure, is it? I'm surviving. Ha, like I wouldn't after all this. That's not the question. [See? No angst.] Just... don't know what to do. Will this feelings fade in a week? Am I just trying to find a replacement? I hope I'm not.
I just find myself feeling left out very easily. Just tired of hiding, tired of always being the one to try and keep a conversation going.
Sometimes it's good. Just sometimes it's bad.
...I don't like one person meaning so much to me. I just don't know how to let go. I... replace, not let go. It's time to do things a different way, perhaps. Just... I don't want to let go. Because I don't beleive some things.
[Try and talk to me some more please... I hate myself for asking this.]
Isn't it strange, trying to deal with the two sets of feelings? It's like I can only concentrate on one at a time. I want to drown one out.
Stupid distance. part of me tells myself it would be easier if I saw them more. Even if nothing happens... Just being able to learn to let go.
I think this descended into angst. Whee!
I just want a moment of security, falling asleep in someones arms. And right now, I think know whose I'd like it to be.
Let's just say, it's probably not who you think.
I have the strangest feeling I'm not being a very good friend right now. Too quick to anger, too self absorbed... I'm sorry. =/
I can't wait to move... I'm so tired of my parents being stupid about things... Liking telling me to make a cup of tea and bitching because they think I've forgotten it. No, I'm just eating fruit like you told me while the kettle boils. =DDDD Is that so difficult to understand? Is it so hard not to criticise me with every light hearted comment I try and make? I hate this smile I have most of the time. Strange how I hide every emotion from them, huh?
It feels like we've never been away from school. *smirks*
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kthxrawr
indescribable
2005-04-11 08:35 pm (UTC)
It is, I always feel like that ^^;
And again, I always feel like that ^^;;
It sucks. But I somehow live through it.
~Hime-Chan
2005-04-11 09:45 pm (UTC)
2005-04-11 09:59 pm (UTC)
-Hugs Tight-
2005-04-12 11:13 am (UTC)
... ^^;
I havent really had the chance to get to know you, so I don't know if im stepping out of line here, but reading what you wrote I think you should just try to clear your head and think whatever it is out properly. The answers will come to you ^___^
Hope you feel better soon ;___;
~Kirara
2005-04-12 02:44 pm (UTC)
Your one of the most selfless people I know Sarri,you are ALWAYS putting otheres before yourself sometimes you HAVE to take time out for you, we ALL need "me time" it dosn't make you a bad friend just because you have to think of yourself for once.
2005-04-12 05:54 pm (UTC)
I mostly agree with Acid.
I'm usually always the same as you with regards to always putting others before myself, the problem is that although this makes you an awesome friend to everyone there eventually comes a time when it does you harm, in a sense that you've spent so much time and energy on your friends you've neglected yourself.
I found this out recently when I encountered feelings that I didn't think I'd ever have and because of the fact that I spent the majority of my time helping my friends through their problems & troubles (and never dealing with any of my own) I wasn't sure how to cope with the feelings, the situation and the potential problems that could occur.
Its never easy to provide advice with regards to relationships - especially when it comes down to deciding wether or not to take the risk or sit back and hope things work out on their own.
I personally found it easier to lock everything away - my past track record with not only relationships but friendships too had turned me into someone who always plays defensive and never takes the risk, because I'd taken it too many times and always lost in the past.
This may or may not have been the best thing to do, I guess I'll never really know for sure. But what I will suggest is that you do spend alot of time thinking things through before making your choice, don't just rush a decision in either direction - and when the time comes to make that decision take Acids advice and keep something back just incase.
I hope things work out for you ^_^
on tsubasa
2005-04-12 03:32 pm (UTC)
2005-04-12 05:02 pm (UTC)