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Anger

Hurt

Jealousy

Fear

Trust

Resentment

Happiness

Possiveness

Grateful


Sometimes I don't like the way I feel. I'll make a resolution to do something, or forget someone, or change how I feel about something. And then I'll go against it straight away.

I don't like the way I feel sometimes. There are some people, how although they might not know it, have the ablity to jerk my emotions all over the place. I'll be happy, and a few words with them will make me upset. I'll be angry with someone, and avoid them, because I know I won't be able to stay angry with them for long once they talk to me. I resent them for that in a way.

Sometimes I hate the way I feel, when I'm angry at everybody or simply when everything's going right. Sometimes I'm angry at myself for wanting things so much. For not having the courage to go along with my plans.

Sometimes I get annoyed when people say something jokingly, but I take it a different way. First I'm angry with them, and then I'm angry with myself.

I'm angry with myself for letting things get to me so much.


And the thing I wonder about the most, what is there good about me? It's something I've been wondering about since the start of the school year. What are my talents? What am i good at?

Because I, for the love of god, cannot figure it out.

i think you're amazingly cool and always have.
It used to upset me that i thought you thought i was a bit of a weirdo.
I really admire you. I know it sounds odd but I do. I have always thought you're a real individual and you did whatever you wanted. I still do think that.

I know how you feel, i feel the same, all the time. What you don't want to do is get yourself in a position where it really really screws you up. If you ever need to talk or vent or anything, you know i'm at the other end of MSN or AIM :)

If all else fails, listen to Incubus. Preferably 'The Warmth' or 'Drive'. That will cheer you up :)

*hugs* Thanks. I never thought of you as a weirdo.... I look at people strangely all the time. Sorry if I made you feel like that.

*wanders off to listen to Incubus and Japanese songs*