*sighs* feeling kinda tired and meh and frustrated... Spent the morning singing with people so it's all good, heh. *rolls around* Wanna be angry. Grar, my arm hurts. Plus fucked up dreams. -_-; We just were at a bloody meet. I don't need to have a dream of one. I feel very loved by friends but still messed up in my head. o.o I have made my promises, I know she will make me stick to it too.

Going swimming in a bit, so I'd better get changed. Being a little antisocial. ^^;;

So, meetage. I took photos. lots of photos. Plus a video file that didn't work cause it was too dark. Played frisbee, drew, played ddr, had free alkymahol. ^^;; Also got my Pokemon deck sorted. \o/ Dodgy statements, plenty of. Hitting Kyle's arm and him dropping his phone and it exploding. O_O;; Laughed so much. XD Tentacle monsters anymous... o_<;; And Firefox doesn't want my body, only my clothes. Forks. At the Flapper for a while, Hiccu and I didn't feel up to playing spin the bottle so went to DDR more. XD I will conquer teh doubles. XD;; people were watching me on my easy songs. *cowers* Go away! Peoples went back to mine, watched Independence Day and ate pizza. Which lead to me whining at 2.45am that people wanted pizza. XD;; Haven't got much sleep... Mike left earlyish... Watched the Lion King while Iso kept going to catch a bus... and coming back again... and Ellie munched on Bran Flakes. XD
I did get sad... but what helped me feel better is people offered me their shoulders, gave me hugs, let me babble at them randomly. Didn't complain when I went really weird. I feel really bad about it, but kinda reassured knowing they care.
Saw some people I hadn't seen for a while - *coughs* so what, three weeks? XD - and that makes meh happy. ^_^

Like I said... I've made my promises, hopefully it won't be the worst case scenario... I'm sad since I'm worrying people. And some of the people who say they're worried about me... I just can't open to. o_o;; It's weird... But in some ways, some people are seeing more sides to me, as I become more open to them... And I'm okay with that, I have more people I trust now... It's just the way things are... And sometimes it's okay to talk about these things, and sometimes it's not, sometimes I just want a hug and I'm too scared to ask for one... Sometimes I just don't want to care...

...And no more alcohol for meh until I'm feeling better. XD;; Since the last 3 times I've had alcohol, I've ended up getting sick. =/ I don't drink that much either... Maybe it's just because of my mental state, how I keep winding myself up. Maybe if it was now, it would be ok, but not then... @_@ Ah, what the hell, I don't know.