Still hanging in there. I know eventually I will be ok. I've never been patient...
Collapsed playing DDR. ^^;; Did Easy 1 Nonstop [almost passed Test My Best] then two Difficult songs... got off the machine and just collapsed on the floor. The Megabowl lady gave me water. ^^;; Not really sure why I collapsed. o___o;;
Made Tegan listen to The Killers. ^_^

I want to be ok. So badly. Some of the time I feel like I'm dreaming, there's nothing I can do, I don't understand. =/ I control how I am... not even to hide my emotions. I ended up sitting in a corner crying. -_-; I don't like being like this. It makes me feel weak and a burden... dragging others down.
Ended up babbling at Nik while we waited for a lift. All I want is to be friends... To stop my heart hurting... Except sometimes I feel like I mean nothing as a friend to him... I don't know. Maybe it's just paranoia.

I don't kow if I'm showing it enough. I am so grateful for my friends.