[Don't be offended if I seem absentminded, I get tonguetied.]

I have Serenity cravings. ;_;

Last [well Friday] night was fuuun =D We went to the Bop in Owen's Park. There were Aftershocks, and mentions of Reading which lead to stressed kitty, guys dressed as penises and ogres and girls dressed as police officers, playboy bunnies and pregant girls, and much dancing. And my favourite part 'o_O;;; You can dance!' Um yes. XD But taking home drunk boyfriend is strangely amusing. XD silly boy. Oh, and Sam kissed my ear. o_O;; We also talked to Jonny's flatmates - one who will never play Dead or Alive 4 because I kicked his ass at it, one who does physics and apparently is weird, and one who wanted to make everyone go to Reading.
I wanna go out again. Haha, seriously, was so much fun.
It did involve, surprisingly, a lot of sleep. We slept in till about 11. X3

I'm not going to Reading. Neither am I going Ame. The people I really want to see I know I will see, and I really want to try and save money for next year. But I should have a debit card again next week, which makes buying-ness easier. It's only another month, I must remember, not two. XD *will be at home after April 2nd* And I don't think I can cosplay for the MUJS cosplay thing. XD
But yeah. I don't know, I'd just rather spend a less hetic weekend with people, if that makes sense. I do wanna see people. People make me happy. I feel bad enough because I can't afford to go see Nekoko Minami weekend.

Uwah. Studio Ghibli seems to like making movies of books I like. This time, Wizard of Earthsea. O_O; I love those books. At least, the first three. I have no memory of the fourth. Oh wait. It had dragons. XP [...all of them had dragons.] The last one was odd. And had dragons. X3

I'm just not tired! XD

In a way, I feel like who I am in some ways is changing. I'm trying to bring back that happy side of me more. Even if I'm not hyper, smiling is good. Being stressed is not. Work hard, play hard? Which is kinda of one of the reasons I'm not that interested in cosplaying myself anymore. It's always got me stressed.
I don't want to be scared of everything changing. We change, but we're still friends, right? I'll cosplay again probably, when I feel more settled, when I feel better about myself. I'll dance without the certainty that at least one person there thinks I look great.
Hee. I'm still quite insecure. But I feel introspective and stuff. I just need to calm down. -_-; Less junk food, which makes me sad. >.> I don't want to be the kid who gets upset so easily. Who gets so bothered because no matter how friendly she tries to be, her flatmates just don't seem to like her.
I keep thinking things will go wrong. We had another almost 'Are we okay?' thing on Thursday. >.<

But yeah. Dancing makes me feel good. BECKY. If I have ID by Easter~~~ Since I doubt they will take my crappy student ID. -_-

If I stop getting so stressed, and make my decisions based on what I want and what is the right thing, and not think about changing them, and remember that I am cool, things should be okay. things will be ok. We're making plans, but it's going to be okay, even it all falls through.

...I might not be at Toko next year. >_>; Although I doubt I'll get in. XD I have no useful skills like that.

...I don't know if I want Maple. I probably should sleep now. ¬¬;

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I am emo. YouTube won't play songs. >0

I downloaded the new Firefox, I downloaded the newest version of Flash so whyyyy won't it work? ;_;