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muhahah teh iso succesfully stole srri's journal... heh
~raises a flag of iso-ness in his own honour~
yay! im good! bleh ah well
~goes back to sleep~

So come on courage, teach me to be shy

*sighs* feeling kinda tired and meh and frustrated... Spent the morning singing with people so it's all good, heh. *rolls around* Wanna be angry. Grar, my arm hurts. Plus fucked up dreams. -_-; We just were at a bloody meet. I don't need to have a dream of one. I feel very loved by friends but still messed up in my head. o.o I have made my promises, I know she will make me stick to it too.

Going swimming in a bit, so I'd better get changed. Being a little antisocial. ^^;;

So, meetage. I took photos. lots of photos. Plus a video file that didn't work cause it was too dark. Played frisbee, drew, played ddr, had free alkymahol. ^^;; Also got my Pokemon deck sorted. \o/ Dodgy statements, plenty of. Hitting Kyle's arm and him dropping his phone and it exploding. O_O;; Laughed so much. XD Tentacle monsters anymous... o_<;; And Firefox doesn't want my body, only my clothes. Forks. At the Flapper for a while, Hiccu and I didn't feel up to playing spin the bottle so went to DDR more. XD I will conquer teh doubles. XD;; people were watching me on my easy songs. *cowers* Go away! Peoples went back to mine, watched Independence Day and ate pizza. Which lead to me whining at 2.45am that people wanted pizza. XD;; Haven't got much sleep... Mike left earlyish... Watched the Lion King while Iso kept going to catch a bus... and coming back again... and Ellie munched on Bran Flakes. XD
I did get sad... but what helped me feel better is people offered me their shoulders, gave me hugs, let me babble at them randomly. Didn't complain when I went really weird. I feel really bad about it, but kinda reassured knowing they care.
Saw some people I hadn't seen for a while - *coughs* so what, three weeks? XD - and that makes meh happy. ^_^

Like I said... I've made my promises, hopefully it won't be the worst case scenario... I'm sad since I'm worrying people. And some of the people who say they're worried about me... I just can't open to. o_o;; It's weird... But in some ways, some people are seeing more sides to me, as I become more open to them... And I'm okay with that, I have more people I trust now... It's just the way things are... And sometimes it's okay to talk about these things, and sometimes it's not, sometimes I just want a hug and I'm too scared to ask for one... Sometimes I just don't want to care...

...And no more alcohol for meh until I'm feeling better. XD;; Since the last 3 times I've had alcohol, I've ended up getting sick. =/ I don't drink that much either... Maybe it's just because of my mental state, how I keep winding myself up. Maybe if it was now, it would be ok, but not then... @_@ Ah, what the hell, I don't know.

But where we once stood lie only footprints in the snow

Mrow. Tired. And dead leg. -_- But my hair smells of chlorine and this makes me happy. XD;; Heh. I'll have remake my bed and drag all the blankets up soon... Tempted to sleep down there though... hm...

Let's continue from where I left off. =P Me, Jam, Hiccu and Ellie walked down to get our buses, Jam home, Hiccu to Birmingham and me and Ellie into Sutton to meet Catherine and Pete for swimming. Maaaan, it was fun. XD First I was tired, then really hyper. XD Teh foamx0rz! teh wavex0rz! Kept making twisted comments, heh, and also much scaring of Catherine and Pete with my manical grin and laugh, heheh... Said 'in the face!' once as well. =3 I'm so insane... At around 3.30, we went, then went to McDonalds for food. damn, I was hungry, ^^;; Hadn't eaten since the random pizza this morning. =3 Had some more funny conversations, managing to get from Pete's eating habits to Ellie taking over the world, and it was all connected. o_O Amazing. Vote for Wabbit! *waves flags and banners* Me and Ellie caught the bus just after that, and I sat and shivered in Sutton. XD; But it was fun. XD Maybe go swimming before rpg in half term... :3 And we need more frisbee! In the face! XD God, I found it so funny hitting Kyle in the face with the frisbee... Frisbee was fun even though we were crap at it...

Just talking on msn and being lazy... I was feeling a little crappy, but I don't know, everything feels okay now. I know I'm not the only one who feels a bit like this. Hell yeah. XD *huggles people*
Spoke to my brother for a bit as well, which is odd. o.o Ha, he asked me if I'd had a party... He said he knew I would. =P

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( Footprints in the Snow )