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Results came... gone...
General Studies: A
Maths: A
Physics: B
Chemistry: B
Further Maths: *incomplete, but currently I have two modules with a C grade...*
>_<;; I'm... angry. Mainly because I got my results and was 'Wow. Better than I'd expected.' Showed them to my mum... And things have just gone downhill. I scored really low on the coursework module for physics [48/100] but made up for it in the exam [95/100, 84/100] so I was quite happy. Coursework is my weak point, it always has been... The Stats was crap as well, but I came out of the S1 exam in tears; I knew I'd done badly.
And what gets me is... Most people I know have done worse, and it's me who is crying and depressed. I've done okay! But... it's not good enough. I hate this so much.

I'm really worried and scared because of this. It's just hit me that in a year... I'll be leaving. And right now... I don't want to know this. Because if - it's still only an if - I'm still in this situation then, I don't know what I'd do.

I just feel so bad, I've had a really crap couple of weeks and it's affecting other people and I hate it so much! But I don't know how to stop it. I just... want to stop hurting people. I'm too insecure and I must stop it.

ETA: My brother just made me cry. He actually said well done. But... I know it's not good enough. Why can't I be happy?
I don't want to go to ame...

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Feeling a bit better now... My dad did get the job, thank goodness. ^^; And they admitted my results aren't that bad. ^^;
However... they've found out about the whole stress thing... Which is bad in a way, but good in another. Looking forward to next weekend a little more.


...But! Amecon! \o/ Catch ya on the flip side, be back Monday. [I wish I had Phone Posts. *whine*]