...God. I wish I'd never looked at the Wildercon website. I'm not going to be able to go at this rate. And it's my own stupid fault. And I don't care what you say, there's always going to be part of my mind which will tell me things are better without me.
Screw feeling better today. They said they'd text and phone me, and they didn't. Can't blame them.
I'm angry and depressed and ill. Just leave me alone.

If you think this is me simply looking for attention, then just believe me. I'm not.

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Tomorrow I shall clean my room. Truth. It makes me all the more determined to go out on Wednesday.