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Shall I elaborate on the last entry?

Yeah, I don't mind the principle of it. Sure, I'll feel a bit left out. But hey. I can deal.

What I object to, is you sneaking behind my back, and then rubbing it in my face. Because, yes, that's what it felt like.

If you didn't want me to come, if you were angry with me or just plain fed up of me, you could have just told me.

At the moment, I'm finding it hard to believe anything you say.

If you won't bring it up, then neither will I. I don't believe I am required to explain to you why I'm upset if, as seems the case, you do not care.

All I'm glad for is that I had people to talk to, to stop me getting more upset and down than I was, and to stop me of thinking to do soemthing stupid. Thank you to those people.

Now, I'm sure you have an excuse why you did this, and if you'd like to tell me, feel free. I'm sure you didn't really mean it, right?
Heh. A bit too late, methinks.

I'm sure when you respond, it will instantly become my fault, because I brought it up. (God, there should be a fandom rule for that.) But I was hurt.

Right first things first:
1) I never attempted to go behind your back,
2) Not once did I call it a party, and i'd quite like to know who spawned this idea,
3) Look at the locations of the people I invited, notice anything?

Or course if or not you choose to believe a word of this is up to you.

Next time i'm thinking of inviting a few mates round for fireworks and to keep me company while i'm baby sitting i'l remember to run it by you first.

No, you wont. Because, who knows, maybe I'll have killed myself to save everyone the trouble. Because yeah, thats how you've made me feel.

Well, then, I'm sorry for having feelings. I'm sorry that to me, it seemed like you never mentioned ANYTHING to me until I had Hope and Christine telling me I was stupid.

I'm sorry for being so completely devoid of personality.


Oh just forget it. I know it won't make any difference. You're right. You always are, aren't you?


It doesn't matter that I'm upset, oh no. All that matters is that you're right.

I don't want to get involved, but there are some things that rub me the wrong way 'Next time i'm thinking of inviting a few mates...i'l remember to run it by you first' is one of them. If you're going to invite a few friends, at least have the common decency to let your other friends know what's going on, that way they understand why they're not invited. Things like 'I'm only allowed to have a few friends over', 'I don't want it to turn into a huge thing', etc. can be the difference between a friend understanding or feeling hated

This is my own personal opinion, you can go ahead and delete it if you want, but things like this make me so angry >.