This... is a not so long babble on me, and my somewhat non-existant love life. ^^;; Just warning you.


That person was the first person I really, really fell for. Admittedly, I had it bad for Jason for a while, even though that was a year and a half ago. But... this was different, I guess.

The thing is, I'm not completely sure I'm over it. There's still little things she does that affect me, like when she strokes my feet or makes jokes about it. 'You became bi just so you could go out with me.' And no, that's not true. It just made me realise I did like girls as well.

A boy in her IT class apparently thinks she's cute, and everyone's having a great laugh over that. Saying things like 'But... her?!?' And I'm just sitting there, trying not to take offence.

And what Riya said to me the other day when I told her: 'Arent you a little young to be making that kind of decision?' ...It just annoys me.'

And all the asking of why. I don't know. I don't know why I fell head over heels for one of my best friends. The first few people I told didn't ask why; just accepted it. And that made me feel better, because in the end of it, no matter how much we annoy each or argue, we're still friends.

I don't see someone being different just because they have a different sexual orientation. I'm still the same person that I was, albeit slightly more messed up. But that's unrelated. ^^;

I am lonely though. I'll wait for someone to come along that I like though. It;'s just annoying to sit on the bus and listen to Riya babble about all the 'gorgeous' guys she sees. And how she won't go out with someone if they're not within a year of her age, if they're not masculine enough, if they're too short or too tall... I know she has the right to say and like what she wants, but I wish she'd go on about it less. And I wish she'd stop slating every person I like, and a year later saying how actually, they're attractive. That doesn't appeared to have happened in the above situation though. XDD