I am so bored. Nobody is online. We're not going to the cinema tonight. *sighs* I guess we're gonna hafta organise it on Monday.

It's amazing how much I cried yesterday. From the end of chemistry, to the end of lunch, and then in english and on the way to the bus stop. I didn't cry in maths. Then again, my good friends aren't in that class.
What Jordan said in chemistry hurt me. I don't think she meant it to, but it still hurt.
Walking to the bus stop I was crying and apologising. I'm putting everybody through such shit at the moment. They don't have to put up with me. They don't deserve to be dragged down by me.

On a much more cheerful note, I finally got my act together and installed PS Elements. Yay. Just a bit more knowledge on how to make the background fixed and then there will be a new layout. :3 And I read Speaker For The Dead. It's way too addictive. ^^

Gr. My mum made a big deal out of me reading her fic and checking it for her, and offered me payment for it. So I accepted. I didn't particularly want to. Now I've done it, I asked how much she was going to pay me because there's some books I wanted to buy. She then told me it wouldn't be enough to buy a book, especially not a 'Poke-mon' book. That's how she said it. It's her name for anime. I just wish she'd accept I like anime and let me buy the books.

Today I'm meant to clean up all day since my brother is back tomorrow. But they have conviently forgotten my homework. >.>

*sighs* I whine too much, don't I?

*spins around* What's happening that I'm not aware of? What's going on? Normally someone would be online. But then again, they have lives.

One thing I remebered today was my previous obsession with becoming strong. I still have it really. Strong as in I could stand on my own, that I could hold my head up high. It was almost as if asking for help meant I would be weak. Am I still like that?


It's amazing how much I think I have grown, how much I have changed. If I really think about it, I haven't changed at all.