Really on a PLC kick right now, god help me. XD I want to cosplay Aya. ._.;

It's really creepy, still shivering like crazy. Maybe cause I was wearing my new jeans [<3] but with my pj top, which isn't exactly warm. How much cold air can get in through a window opened a few millimetres? A lot. ;_; I was trying to have blankets wrapped around me and play SMO last night. XD; I'm so cold lately. Shiver shiver. And also, I keep flinching at sounds, just things like my phone going off or someone talking to me. Going insane.

I guess this time to let go of some things. Or at least stop holding on so tightly. To try and become more like the person somebody thought I was once. No, seriously. XD When I first met them, they thought I was always hyper and happy, but I wasn't, and things are getting worse. But I will change them. I'll change me. For me. Stop myself getting so down, stop holding onto things so tightly, move around a little, stop trying to guard myself from pain... And stop myself getting cranky from no food. My friends will still be there to catch me when I fall, the least I can do is try and stand tall. This came from thinking that the way I am isn't fair on some people, and it's not fair on me either. So yeah, ^^ lets see how things go, I can do it. Sure, I will get down again, but hopefully it will happen less, I'll control my temper better...

To people who should know who they are, I love you lots, and I wish I could have been there. A 30 second phone call on low credit doesn't really serve as a replacement.

I feel so sleepy and lazy. Grr.