So here it is. 2003. It's been a long year. So many things have happened that have changed what I believe in, so many things I thought would always be the same have changed... leaving me questioning myself.

I don't want to dwell on last year. It had its ups and its downs. But I know I wouldn't have gotten anywhere without my friends.

I don't generally make resolutions, I always wind up breaking them in the first week of January. *laughs* But this year... I'm going try and appreciate my friends more and try not to be such a victim of my own insecurities. And to try and be happy being who I am.

I just want everyone to be happy... even though that's impossible in a way. *sighs*

A long December and there's reason to believe
Maybe this year will be better than the last
I can't remember the last thing that you said as you were leavin'
Now the days go by so fast

And it's one more day up in the canyons
And it's one more night in Hollywood
If you think that I could be forgiven...I wish you would

The smell of hospitals in winter
And the feeling that it's all a lot of oysters, but no pearls
All at once you look across a crowded room
To see the way that light attaches to a girl

And it's one more day up in the canyons
And it's one more night in Hollywood
If you think you might come to California...I think you should

Drove up to Hillside Manor sometime after two a.m.
And talked a little while about the year
I guess the winter makes you laugh a little slower,
Makes you talk a little lower about the things you could not show her

And it's been a long December and there's reason to believe
Maybe this year will be better than the last
I can't remember all the times I tried to tell my myself
To hold on to these moments as they pass

And it's one more day up in the canyon
And it's one more night in Hollywood
It's been so long since I've seen the ocean...I guess I should
~Counting Crows, A Long December

I guess this just sums it up for me. ^^ It wouldn't be New Year without it.


Happy New Year everybody. May it be a good one.