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I don't know what to do. There's the worries and anger that are temporarily overlaid by other events, but are still there. That will be there for a while. A good long while.

Bex, I am fucking worried about you, and I do care, and for gods sake, it's not fake. I don't know what to say to make you believe me. I can't speak for anyone else, but I am honestly concerned about you.
I don't know what to do. I really don't.


Jordan, get over it. I hate to put it like this, but you're annoying the hell out of me. You are being so egotistical and it's annoying. Yes, I'm aware of the fact you don't need anyone. Please, don't rub it in my face anymore.
...Is your computer more important than people around you? It seems that way, you know. It seems like that's the most important thing in your life. It'll always be there when you've finshed the day. Addicted? No. You're not addicted. You like it a lot, but you're not addicted.
I don't know how I can believe half of the things you say anymore. Because... well, there's never any proof. You just seem to think about yourself and your fucking computer, and that's it.
I know I have NO IDEA what you're thinking or of the reasons for things, but then again, whose fault is that?
And, oh wow, you've been to an anime meet. Shut up about it, or at least don't leave other people out. Don't rub it in people's faces.
Miiol told me somethings the other day, about how you told her I was really cool or something and about how you worried over me sometimes. ...Hate me for it, but how am I meant to know? I've gotten to the point where I can't accept things on good faith. Or whatever I mean.
Jordan, you act like you're bigger and better than everyone else. You act as if anything you have to say is the most important thing in the world. Tell me, how is that meant to make - me, us - feel.


I'm angry and upset, and am likely to be for a while. But hey, who cares. I think I've gotten over that now. The fact that I'm just another nobody.

I'm going offline for a long while. I need to do something to do to... just to do.
Any of you say it's my fault and I swear, I'll fucking hit you. It's ALWAYS my fault.

ETA: Yes, I'm still angry.