Still living, sinking, falling, we're still living, drifting

My computer clock has been playing up. Gr. Until I changed it a moment ago it thought it was 10 in the moring. It's actually 5.50 in the afternoon. (This will also probably show you how long it takes me to write an entry.)

Today we had a firedrill. Joy. Freezing cold weather as well. And when we got back to the IT rooms (Well, it wasn't actually going back to the IT rooms. We'd been absent for the first 5 minutes of the lesson. Then the fire alarm went. The teacher wasn't there either.) the teacher stole my pc. ¬.¬
I'm just as computer obsessive as Jordan really.

In the morning, I made Tegan listen to Tell All Your Friends, the first minute of For Real, Predilection, Little Back Blackpack and Buck Rogers. *snickers* Poor Tee-chan. She put up with it though. ^^ I also began describing all 7 Suzaku seishi in FY. That scared her. *scrunches up nose* She's so nice to me. *bounces*

At lunch, I was depressed. Not really sure why, as usual. Well, I do have an idea. But that isn't the point. Most of lunch I spent writing a note to Jordan. At the end, I walked out of the room a few minutes before the others. Mainly because I was still upset and I thought they were waiting for Katie and I said I would met them in the next lesson. Katie came along quickly though. We were walking along the corridor, me, Jordan, Katie and Holly, who I don't like much, but she was in the DT rooms and was in the next lesson with us, so therefore she followed. I was dragging behind Katie and Jordan a little bit, and Holly then said,

'It wasn't me. I didn't say anything. I can't say hello to you without setting you off.'

I didn't see the look on her face, because I was ahead of her and then I had hidden my face and was crying and hyperventilating. I had a panic attack almost. I think it was just because of what she said, and the tone she said it in. Hatred and anger. No matter what I do, I never fail to anger or upset someone. I just snapped.
The thing I remember most was someone telling me to calm down, I'm not really sure who. I opened my eyes and the art teacher took me into the art room. Not took really, dragged. I was shaking so much. Someone from the office was called down. They kept talking like I wasn't there. 'She hasn't moved an inch since she got in here.'
I don't know how long it took, but eventually me and Jordan went back to class. After Physics, I had to go see Mrs Batchelor because Holly had been talking to her, since she was upset. Now I have an appointment with the school nurse. *sighs* (If you're wondering, I think our school nurse is kinda like the school pyschlogist or something.)

In English, which I missed half of, I wrote another story using a worksheet. The title was Assasin. *coughs* I'm good at this. Kirsty said my story was morbid. Especially the last line. ^^ Ah well.


I'm not really over it. When I walked home, some kids from another school were walking in the opposite direction. Since they were awkward, I had to walk through the middle of their group. I think someone tried to say something to me. I ignored them. I just felt so impassive.

And now I'm writing this and about to play Pokemon. Yay!
[09:57:30] Me: *nods* I will be the boy this time. He is cuter.
[09:57:38] Jordan: im gonna be the boy this time, he has way cooler hair
[09:58:03] Me: I know!
[09:58:11] Me: :P
[09:58:13] Me: and his bandana is way better
*giggles* I said that the other day, and Katie said 'Well, of course the boy would be cuter.'

I'm also waiting for food. -.- My mother refuses to go shopping until Stargate finishes. But then again, she said she'd buy me poptarts.


So that was my day. Vodafone, how are you?!

(On an additional note, it took me half an hour to write this.)