I'm so cool, too bad I'm a loser

Estel wasn't in school today. *shrugs* Maybe she's ill.

I was really hyper all through IT, but I did get work done. Wow. *laughs* All though, because I was hyper, Jordan kept telling me off for not being able to sit still. On the way out of the lesson, I began telling Kirsty about the convesation last night... about my obsession with putting stuff in my moiuth... and how long it took me to notice it could be interpreted wrongly. ^^; But it's true. (Not in that sense.) I keep chewing on things all the time... anoything thats there... my pen lid, a piece of my headphones, my pencil case... -.-;; I should stop it really. But I won't. :P

In physics... things seemed to go wrong. I'm not really sure why, but I sunk into depression. And trust me, it lasted.

Maths was okay, Charlotte kept trying to copy my coursework. ^^ We get on a lot better than we used to I guess. I've stopped despising her for the Jason incident.

Lunch was me and Bex talking in the computer room. As Fiona put it, we hang out in there. *laughs*

Geography, I talked to Julia. She's another one I get on better with now.

In english, the teacher had told us to bring our novels but then did work on poetry. >.> I hate the poems we have to do.

On the way to the bus stop I was talking to Bex. Riya had decided she would go to Sutton with Katie. I was still talking to Bex until my bus came. Apparently Sue had decided to stir things again.
I don't really care. My friendship with Riya has gone beyond any chance of rescuing it. And I don't care. When both her and Estel caught the early bus, I'd sometimes cath a bus to Estel's stop and then catch the normal bus with her, mainly because I like talking to Estel. Riya got angry at that. When I mentioned in conversation last week that I'd missed my bus because it was early and didn't wait for the shuttle bus, she made a comment along the lines of 'Oh, now you catch the late bus.'
I don't know if I can deal with it.

Katie as well has been annoying me. It's the small things. I'd seen in a magazine a competion for a holdiday for a family of four. Because my brother doesn't live here anymore, if I won, I'd probably take one of my friends. I was talking about that and how hard it would be to choose who, and Katie goes 'Well, you'd choice me.' That just annoyed me. The whole thing about Jonathin. She can be really upset all day and then hears one thing about him and is happy. In the morning, when I ask her how she is, she always says whether she's seen him or not. She always says about how we'd like him if we see him, but never once mentions his personality.
It's so many little things that get on my nerves. And I think we're generally just growing apart.

Something Bex said this afternoon made me smile. When Jordan got in this morning, she said hi to everyone but me. I wasnt too bothered. Bex said she was on the point of saying something, like pointedly sdaying hello. *smiles* Thank you.
Heather's invited everybody to Pizza Hut in town on Friday. I'm not sure whether I'll go. I'd like to. But it might finish late, and I live the furthest away from those I know are coming. If I do go, I'd like it if I could stay over at someones, just to make it easier for everyone. Then my parents don't have to drive all the way over to get me. I can just catch the bus home, especially because it's Saturday. The Sunday bus service is bad. ^^; Also, we have an own-clothes day on Friday. It's meant to be sportswear. We can't wear jeans. I'll either wear my jogging bottoms or my cool trousers. They're very cool. ^^ Screw the sports stuff.

Chibi Kyo is cute. Randomness to the extreme.

Fallign For The First Time

I'm so cool, too bad I'm a loser
I'm so smart, too bad I can't get anything figured out
I'm so brave, too bad I'm a baby
I'm so fly, that's probably why it
Feels just like I'm falling for the first time

I'm so green, it's really amazing
I'm so clean, too bad I can't get all the dirt off of me
I'm so sane, it's driving me crazy
It's so strange, I can't believe it
Feels just like I'm falling for the first time

Anyone perfect must be lying, anything easy has its cost
Anyone plain can be lovely, anyone loved can be lost
What if I lost my direction? What if I lost sense of time?
What if I nursed this infection? Maybe the worst is behind
It feels just like I'm falling for the first time
It feels just like I'm falling for the first time

I'm so chill, no wonder it's freezing
I'm so still, I just can't keep my fingers out of anything
I'm so thrilled to finally be failing
I'm so done, turn me over cause it
Feels just like I'm falling for the first time

Anything plain can be lovely, anything loved can be lost
Maybe I lost my direction, what if our love is the cost?
Anyone perfect must be lying, anything easy has its cost
Anyone plain can be lovely, anyone loved can be lost
What if I lost my direction? What if I lost sense of time?
What if I nursed this infection? Maybe the worst is behind

Let Me Be With You

Futari ga kitto deaeruyouna mahou wo kakete
Ryoute wo sotto kasanetehora hohoemukara
To make sure the two of us meet, I cast a spell
Our hands are gently touch, and then look at me smile

Honto no kimochi kitsukanai furishite
Totsuzen futari koi ni ochitano
Let Me Be With You
Let Me Be With You
Let Me Be With You
Dakishimetaino
We pretend not to realize how we really feel
And suddenly, we fell in love
Let Me Be With You
Let Me Be With You
Let Me Be With You
I want to hold you tight

Imamade zutto ienaimama kakushitetano
Tsuyogatteru soredakenano mitsukedashite
Until now, unable to say it, I've just been hiding it
I'm only acting strong, that's all it is, please see through it

Machiawasemade atogofun mattete
Sonoatofutari koi ni ochitano
Let Me Be With You
Let Me Be With You
Let Me Be With You
Nakitakunaruno
Just wait five more minutes until we can meet
And after that we fell in love
Let Me Be With You
Let Me Be With You
Let Me Be With You
I just want to cry

Tsunaidate wo sotto hanasutoki
Fuan ni naruno Fuan ni naruno
Let Me Be With You
Let Me Be With You
Let Me Be With You
Dakishimetainoni
Dakishimetainoni
When we let go our joined hands
It makes me uneasy It makes me uneasy
Let Me Be With You
Let Me Be With You
Let Me Be With You
I just want to hold you
I just want to hold you

Aw! Such a cute song! Daisuki!