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You're a great, wonderful person, you know? I know I've been awful to put up with, not just the last two days, but for a while, but you do, and you help me and talk to me. I'm sorry for causing trouble, but thank you for being there. *hugs* I might not say it, but it really does mean a lot to me.

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I wrote most of what I had to say on Thursday night. Yes, I did feel like you were ignoring me. Because you go so much on about Wildercon and the people there you met who are so great and so wonderful, and you always seem to be talking to them; it feels like you don't actually need me anymore. ...I don't know why anyone would need me.
Yes, I did walk away, so I could cry on my own. ...I'm allowed to want to be alone as well, right?
I have trouble bringing myself to believe that when I'm not around, you don't laugh at me behind my back. I have trouble bringing myself to believe that all that's keeping you here is pity.
I know I'm a hypocrite, because I do sometimes say things not to your face, but... Eventually, I do tell you. You don't seem to tell me what you feel ever. You don't ever let me in.
And, yes, you do act like you know better than anyone else.

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I'll be honest - she's been annoying me a lot. It's not on purpose probably, and I know I'm mean for saying it, but she has. I don't want her to come to Wildercon because I know she will just hang around Jordan for the entire weekend, which would be okay, if it wasn't for the entire weekend.
I'm unreasonable. I know. Deal with it. -_-.

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...I hate the way I acted. I acted like a spoilt brat on Friday.
But part of me is glad I wrote and said what I did on Thursday. I needed to. And what I said was true. It would hurt like hell, and I know I'd never have another friend like Jordan again... I would get over it.
I lay on my bed and part of me felt content that it wasn't up to me anymore. Because it did feel like that.

...It would still be my fault though.

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