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jump start my kaleidoscope heart

already out of foolproof ideas

[if you started breathing, i'd court you exclusively.]
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who is this Michael that my parents keep talking about?
[my mother can't read 'My Chemical Romance'.]

packing all my stuff up into boxes again. tomorrow is going back day.
I'm getting stressed being here again. sleepy sleepy not good.

I am in serious need of a haircut. and some hair dye.

[you don't have to worry.]
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there's no snow. I feel somewhat cheated.

new years was awesome.

so much to say, so little words. I have a Heffalump.

[i've been here once before, you keep me running in circles.]
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yesterday was amusing in the end. for a while, I hid upstairs with the eldest of my cousins - he's 3 years younger than me and is off to uni next year, probably the same uni as me, aha - playing with his iPhone and talking music. iPhones are kind of super annoying to navigate. but he's got pretty good music taste - likes Fall Out Boy, Brand New and a fair amount of indie too.
he was an elf again. oh man, that never ever gets old. this year, he had no tights. err, do not want.

although looking at the entry I just linked to, oh god, were the puppies ever that small? they were almost pocket sized back then.

Boxing Day is the only day I can get away with having apple pie and ice cream for breakfast. :D

I just watched the adaptation of one of my favourite childhood books - Ballet Shoes. had a load of well known English actors and Emma Watson was actually quite good in it. they added random romance in though. but I remembered what a brat Posy was in it. I didn't like her much, ahaha. her dancing teacher has a stroke and her reaction is 'I'm not crying for Madam, I'm crying for me. what about my training?' she runs away from home to see a Russian dancing instructor who offers her a place in an academy in Prague, when her guardian doesn't have enough money to keep them in England. so her eldest sister gives up her dreams for it. [performing in movies as opposed to theatre.]

god, so tired lately.

[we kissed on a corner then danced through the night.]
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ugh, would anybody be willing to quickly read over a fic for me tonight/tomorrow? preferably someone who isn't squicked out by bandom, ahaha.
it's... almost done. just incredibly late.

in other news, my report was handed in, I'm at home, and it's bloody freezing. we have a christmas tree and my dvd burner has quit working.
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[i laughed myself to sleep.]
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last weeks are always hectic. more like, totally stress.

I went out and treated myself to my favourite drink ever [cream based java chocolate chip frappuccino with a shot of espresso and a shot of peppermint = bliss, okay?] and a magazine. so now I have a calendar with Gerard Way's creepy face on it. awesome, y/y?

Christmas shopping has been done - for myself. my parents were just basically like 'well, here's the amazon account. you can spend this much money.' I was going to get a ds lite, but I may as well wait until my birthday - everywhere was sold out. duh, I guess. so, included in my list of things is Supernatural, House, Zelda and a few cds. and the rest will go towards going shopping with my grandma. squee, we're taking my cousin as well this year - a semi-emo-ish 15 year old. ahah, he's one of my favourites.

going home pretty soon. Saturday, to be precise. so hey, who is actually still around Birmingham? I'll chase up people at some point soon.

uni wise. um. I'm still a terminal slacker, you know. but I had my project meeting today and I was reassured on a number of counts:
- that I appear to have made some progress.
- that the one idea I have is a good one, and I should concentrate on that one.
- that my supervisor is going to be marking it, ahaha.
- and the best part - it's going to be used in lectures.
quick fyi: my third year project is to design a demonstration for a first year electromagnetics class. it's something... practical! in my second year, we made this weather station thing that, as soon as we'd finished it and got it marked, was wiped clean and disassembled so the next year along could use the same components. but this is something that I can design and it will be made and will actually be useful! oh god, you guys don't know how much that means to me.
so if I start raving about magnets any time soon, just tolerate me, k? ahaha.

Hi Adam. Am I doing it wrong?
If you're asking about life then yes. Completely.

...I always knew there was a reason I liked Rock Sound.

Hellogoodbye tomorrow. been listening to the support acts. that's... uh, that's different.

[i'm making a note here - huge success!]
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drunked livejournal posts are always the win.

although I still have enough of my senses to spell a little. it's better than p[redictive text. [semagic is going 'WTF YOU CANNOY SPELL' but I'm shunning it.]

tonight was FANTASTIC. I may or may not have gotten myself eloped with two - three? - girls, with a boy as our lead bitch. I am happy happy, even if my head is a little spinny.
it did pretty good at killing my angst.

I love my friends ♥ ♥

this song is awesome.

NOW. I go to watch The Empire Strikes Back. ahaha.

[come on, tightly hold your hand, take a deep breath - give them the finger.]
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conversations in song lyrics are so awesome.

I am seriously emo facing here. I am. I am severely confused and a little scared and a lot unhappy.
I'd. I'd just like some happy making thoughts.
[and for someone to tell me it's all okay, and I'm not fucking up, and to try and understand why I'm like this.]

take my brain, a band [or two], a cracked out manga involving robots, the phrase 'starving artist', 'One Day, Robots Will Cry - and what do you get.
[one person already knows.]
I have the best worst ideas.

I'm just out of sorts.

an easy way to tell if I'm kind of depressed. have I brought stationary lately?
I buy pens when I'm sad. yay, highlighters.

Christmas is in January. I can't really afford presents right now, so expect things then. ♥


come on, take this gasoline tin, head up high - walk like a winner. let the bare feet be the last sounds that they hear.

[but where's your heart?]
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smoke makes me cough, people make me annoyed.
but it was still fun. haven't seen people for too long.

not as long as others make it out to be. seriously, every time I see Jason, he's like 'I haven't seen you for months!'
dude, I saw you more recently than like... everyone else apart from Becky, Jordan and Vanesha.


'I shall kill your monstaaaaaaa.'
Beowulf made me laugh.
cause it was kind of lame.


I will never not love Ellie. ♥


if it's by air, I don't wanna know. if we all don't take cover, we're all gonna fall back in love again
[you work late to fight off your pulse, your patient dies, you take the night off.]

[i think i'll go home and mull this over.]
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I have just over 300 words, and all I think is 'god, I would much rather be writing that Beauty and the Beast au.'

I love love love the idea I have at the moment - just magic and curses and falling in love and grand gestures -
it just sounds a little cooler.
[oh, I'll admit it, I'm in love with the title alone.]

inspiration, please find me.


'Cause like you said, this is it. This is life. And I'm in love with you... I think that's the only thing I've ever really been sure of in my entire life. And I'm really messed up right now, and I got a whole lot of stuff I have to work out, but I don't want to waste any more of my life without you in it. And I think I can do this. I mean, I want to. I have to, right?'

....bonus points if you can name the film.

in other news, I have issues with commitment. which really, is not that surprising.
[which, um, makes it sound like we broke up. IT'S ALL GOOD, DON'T WORRY. we just talk too much sometimes.]


also, in non depressing news - 69/100 for my coursework. fucking booyah.
especially since I had an 'oh god oh god, part of my assignment didn't get marked!' spazout.

nipples was said a bit too much during my lab.


sarritichi@scritch.me.uk has quit working. which kind of explains a lot.

[get it? get it? get it? you just don't get it.]
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so um, apart from the ALMOST GETTING RUN OVER PART. today was awesome.

still have the plague.

still hyper. was pretty damn awesome to see everyone. needs moar multiconvos.

um, actually kind of tired now. but films and awesome people call.
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[but i swear nothing quite like you and me.]
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...has it really been less than a week?

we've been spending a lot of time just together. it's. it's pretty damn awesome.
we're taking it slow.


I have the plague. this is not awesome. I'm just kind of overdosing on throat sweets.


it's been a odd week. I finally asked a question I was expecting to hear no to [and heard yes], I got a boyfriend, I saw three fantastic live bands [and one somewhat lame one], met people off my friendslist, handed in an assignment, made promises to talk more, and today I'm seeing a whole bunch of my friends today! despite the plague!

man, it feels good to feel this way.


'They wrote Nine in the Afternoon while being ... chemically imbalanced.'

okay, Panic, Pete Wentz, ilu. ♥


I've seen a lot of foolish behaviour in my time
but I tell you, they've got nothing on me

oh god, let me not screw this one up.
but I say this every time.

[can't cover it up.]
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it's costing me a grand total of £8 to get home. instead of £19.10. admittedly, part of that involves my parents dropping me off at Stafford at 8.30pm. and plus, I got my tickets to Sheffield for £6.50.
obviously, trains are awesome.

ALTHOUGH some retard decided to book the wrong date for the return journey. but it costs £5 to change the ticket [plus what I already spent] and £2.50 to buy a new ticket... do the maths.

and I get a Tegan tomorrow/today possibly. and oh my god, a Nik in January. a rare occasion.
as time goes by, I think we're better - healthier? - friends. I love him to pieces and though he annoys and exasperates me - it's nothing like it was. I don't need him to talk to me. it's nice when he does.
and plus, I hear his girlfriend is fucking awesome. ♥ for Neko!


I'm back in a good mood. god, this thing never makes sense. but my friends are fucking awesome. never believe anything different.
they played good cop bad cop on the way home, and said something I needed to hear.

courting in the form of kicking each other's ass at Soul Calibre 3. whatever works for you.


cause it's all been done and its all been said
we're the coolest kids and we take what we can get

sometimes I find it a little amazing, my ability to bounce back. a couple hours ago, I was feeling close to tears, close to being sick, had a splitting headache. and now I just feel... hyper? and nothing has really changed. but it doesn't matter. I'll carry on. [and though you're dead and gone, believe me-]
this keeps happening. I'll be really upset and then suddenly - all gone. I don't think I mind.

I walked back half of the way on my own, and to be honest, I needed that. just to be alone for a little.


life soundtrack )

winamp cracks me the fuck up.


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[if you could be my punk rock princess.]
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psa: if I'm sitting in a computer lab with a programming assignment handout, programming up on my screen and my headphones in - this kind of implies I don't want to talk to you. especially if you're not actually, you know, doing this class.
[okay, so my music is as low as it will go, that makes no difference. he came up and was 'hi 8D' and I was just 'uhh... yeah. working.']

today has been bad day so far - woke up at 11 when my lectures are at 9, 10 and 11 respectively. the 11 one was cancelled. and there's the whole matter of this programming assignment. I think I'll be in the lbas for a few afternoons.
also, I need to do research and start my [livejournal.com profile] nightmare_xmas assignment.

but [livejournal.com profile] bumped's wolf game has started ¦3 this should be... interesting.

I like annotating my notes in pink fineliners. I don't know, it's just all the electronics stuff - but with pink writing! it cracks me up, okay?

also, you guys rock for answering my elf question, ahaha.

eta: my program is spitting out random errors at me. not happy.

eta2: WAIT THAT WAS EASY. however, I'm like, a week behind. I have bad work ethics. true story, i keep compiling the program to check it works, despite having changed nothing.

[let's take a walk out on the broken glass, come on come on come on.]
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interest meme from [livejournal.com profile] the_sell_out

world domination
who doesn't want world domination! [I had a conversation about this the other day - it would be nice to delegate things.]
touchy boylove
see: Panic! at the Disco, My Chemical Romance, Fall out Boy.
death kitty
a fairly emo range of clothes. with cat ears on. I've got one of their jackets which has a hood with cat ears on [which amuses drunk people] and I adore it.
expect the unexpected
back, a long long time ago when I used to watch Cardcaptors [so a little while before I began this journal], one of the characters would always be 'expect the unexpected!' but... wouldn't that make it the expected?
some people [mainly my dad] are all 'yeah, squirrels are just rats with good pr', but honest to good, I think they're adorable. on holiday one year in Canada, we kept seeing this little black squirrels everywhere in the middle of a city. it was rather cute.
ninja pirates
the only solution to the never ending war between ninjas and pirates. you have to admit, they'd be pretty fucking awesome.
I deal with binary a lot on my course - binary addition, logic, that kind of thing. and I don't know, I kind of like it. proof that I do like my course? maybe.


I woke up! coffee is my friend, yo. [people don't let me have coffee normally.]
me and John went Halloween costume shopping - or at least, he brought all of his costume bar a wig, I went 'fuck it' and brought eyeliner. I also had a java chip peppermint frappuccino [did you know I have to google this every fucking time?] that was just what I needed. also, Starbucks makes me think 'you smell of Christmas, Jon.'
[from thursday. I procrastinate on lj.]


in other news, I totally have a crush on Lyn-Z from MSI. she has a really cute smile! [and is really bendy. really. bendy.]
wriggly wriggly joy.

and Pete Wentz, I think you're kind of hysterically amazing. you dressed up as Ryan Ross for Halloween.


you know there's always one person in a flat who plays really loud music? I think that's me.


I woke up and my hair was pink.
[seriously, there's a story behind this! back in my first year, I dyed my hair pink randomly one weekend, and when it got around to my tutorial, midway through, my tutor turned to me and was 'your hair wasn't that colour last week!' seriously, just in the middle of the session. we were talking about it on the train to expo, and the 'I WOKE UP AND MY HAIR WAS PINK' was coined. it got us some weird looks.]
but yeah. I woke up and my hair [and the walls and my face and my shoulder] was pink. Pete Wentz bangs. but in pink.

but I've talked to Sophie, who says I should dye all of it pink/red. it would match. I'm wearing black trousers, a red long sleeved top, a Nightmare Before Christmas t-shirt [black], red and black gloves, red and pink converse and a black cadet hat. oh god, i adore this hat. I've always wanted one, but they look retarded because my head is too big. now I have one.

we saw the most awesome t-shirt ever. robots in disguise.


one of these days I need to get my ass in gear and fucking work.
one of these days.

[hello angel, tell me, where are you?]
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things I believe in.
- friends.
- music.
- not making blanket statements or judgements based on things like music. like what you will. I don't mind if you like what I listen to, but- just stop it.
- the heart's capacity for love. I've been there, crying myself to sleep and feeling sick that someone doesn't love me anymore. but we all move on. we don't stay stuck forever.
- that even when you [i] hit the floor, someone will always be there.
- and that things get better.

[- that old school mychem will never not crack me the fuck up.]

[less than two weeks.]

this was going to be longer and emoer, more about lapsed religion and judgement, and then maybe some cryptic statements on the past, and how people see me, what they know about versus what I know.
but like I said, that would be emo.


I feel like I need to sleep for a week. but I only have the one lecture tomorrow, and then Halloween costume shopping.
...I know Halloween is today. but the party is Saturday.
I could pretty much pass as a zombie. I am pretty much that tired. no idea how I'm going to make it through the movie screenings tomorrow and the party Saturday.
also, I'm out of alcohol. to take chocolate milk and Baileys or coke and jd. questions questions.


awesome link of the day. The Machine is Us/ing Us. from a set of videos from an anthropology class about the effects of digital media. it's interesting, for sure.

[while they kill in the name of applied mathematics.]
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Haiku2 for kthxrawr
world is shrinking at
an alarming rate get
out while you can
Created by Grahame

my god, that's actually a rather good one.
as is this one.
yeah it's been a
girl by the car out in the
parking lot she says

because mangled Counting Crows lyrics ftw.


same story, different chapter. I stayed over at the house of fangirls again. me, Katie, Sophie and Max went to watch Ratatouille - which was hilarious in itself, as well as the comments we kept making - and the dropping of the popcorn!
we had pizza, watched Top Gear, just chilled in general. watched the insane gerbil run into things. made Katie watch a few Panic videos - the 'you smell so slutty right now' dvd clip and the fanvid where Brendon has no concept of personal space, and would like to remind everyone that hey - he has a crotch!
me and Katie watched Garden State and the first two episodes of Black Books, and I wonder why I've never watched it before.

I am getting emails off Facebook from the start of the month. this shit is getting annoying.


there are some days, when you're just swept along with the crowd.

and as soon as i think - no more, i can't go on like this - someone does something to change my mind.

oh, my sweet indecision.

[give your immortality to me, i'll set you up against the stars.]
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last couple of days have been surprisingly fun! went to a gig last minute last night, which was oh my god awesome. Katie wins everything, ever. she's good at converting people. also, after, had some good conversations with her and Indie James. [we have to categorise the James. there is Indie James, Pirate James, Laura's James... apparently Laura has started naming them after Star Wars movies. A New James, etcetera.] pretty good, especially since I've never really spoken to him much before.

and today, Anisha came to Manchester, and we had delicious, delicious noodles and tempura. and sorbet! so good! *dead* depending on how many people turn up to the meet, we should go there again. also finally remembered to burn a dvd of emo for her. 1100+ tracks. booyah. plus, I made her watch youtube videos. okay, I am addicted to it. no... huge secret there.
['...you have livejournal as your home page?!']

doors 2 - Anisha 0.


6. Sarritchi
[ happy, rand0m, fair, debatable, unique ]
Sarri is awesome. XD I might not talk to her tooooo often but when I do, it's a conversation made of win. Sarri's also a bit of a ninja. Just when you think she can't see your LJ entries, she is actually lurking beneath the shadows. Although she's an anime fan, she listens to emo music, which I don't put against her. She adores it, and isn't ashamed of it which takes a lot of guts against the whole anime clique scene. However, her personality isn't emo itself. =3 I love our conversations and I love who she is. ^^

dude, is it 'say randomly nice things about me' week or something? [livejournal.com profile] xia_hime AND [livejournal.com profile] quaaaack have both been up to it lately. ♥ ♥ ♥ for you ALL, okay? I'm such a sap, but pfft, oh well. I do read everything you write, and you all mean a lot to me.

[although, dude, you spelt my name wrong.]

I'm just in a mood of loving everything lately, which is kind of weird, considering how awful I felt the other night.


[oh, how we shouted, how we screamed- take notice, take interest, take me with you.]


any ideas for a cheap Halloween costume?

[hours pass and she still counts the minutes that i am not there.]
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ugh, one of my friends is pissing me off.
okay, so last year - I spent a lot of time in lectures with Jonny, John and Mark since we had a few more lectures together than I did with Keith. so we'd end up sitting around and eating lunch too. and I know they can be kind of bitchy. but to be honest, they're like that with everyone. but they don't like Keith so much.
towards the end of the year, we started talking to a couple of other guys - Mel and Paul - who are okay, even if Paul is a little creepy.
and now this year - I have one lecture with Keith, Mel and Paul, who have more lectures together that I don't have. I wouldn't mind if it didn't coincide with Keith start acting like a bitch. leaving bitchy anonymous comments on facebook calling me 'a wannabe emo' [there are so many levels of wtf to that]. clearing rubbish off a table and someone says 'oh. just chuck it all over there.' and he says 'and her too?'

maybe I'm being oversensitive.

the emo thing. I don't know. it's the wannabe part of it. I am not ashamed to say I like what is classed by most people as emo music. [genre debate another day plz.] I kind of like some of the emo fashions, but not necessarily on myself. the whole androgynous scene kid thing - yeah, I think that's kind of fucking cool, to be honest. I kind of wish I could get away with it. I call myself the happiest emo. it's a joke. I don't mind people saying I'm an emo.
but, like I said, it's the wannabe thing that gets me. the implication that I'm a failure at being an emo.

[waw waw wa~w]

[appropriate icon? keywords: hate is a strong word but- i really really really don't like you.]


in other news, worlds are interconnected, fencing is made of misheard phrases and I am permanently about ten minutes behind everyone else.
I've had my first two labs of the year, and they went okay. even if one of them I had someone who did the course last year helping me. ahaha.

[all of these awkwardjumpstartstalling conversations mean much more to me than anything.]
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I am finding songs that break my heart.


today, I wasted three hours. by going to the open day for a course I'm not even doing. I got a kitkat out of the deal.

also, huh, how about that. semis.
...I don't even like rugby.

I have to be up again in about 3 hours. urgh. getting Pico back [sans working dvd drive, but I have two computer science students who have offered their services. oh yeah, I went there.]

The party was... interesting. same story as 42s - didn't eat enough in the day, so got rather drunk. ran out of mixers so ended up drinking vodka almost straight. Sophie added cider. which I hate.
had some good conversations, especially ones about Disney, lectures and violence - even if we did almost get run over. oh, some days I'd just like to read more into it.
we also talked about cat macros and /b.
mikeyway clone was there. ironically, called mike.

I'm not quite sure to do with myself, any suggestions? take a risk, play it cool, go to sleep? choices, choices.


Reply to this post and I will list three things I love about you. Then repost to your own journal and spread the love.

[we're making out inside crashed cars.]
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quick heads up to all who live relatively near me -
Manchester meet! sometime in October or November. any ideas?
would be pretty awesome if people could come. especially as we're giving you notice.


in other news, 'what if' coversations can be hilarious [because for some reason they lead to discussions on oral sex at 11pm in a train station] and Transformers made me feel ill, literally. we're talking really huge robots here. go Imax.